Honestly

One of my favorite songs, which of late I can’t sing it without tearing up.  It is well with my soul, even through hard trials, and when I have trouble believing it; it is truly well with my soul, because of Christ.  Because of His death for my sins, taking on the wrath of God that I deserve.  For God to love and save someone like me is a Love that no words in any language of man could ever do justice.

I see now that God has taken a lot of the things that I want away from me in order to bring me back to Him.  He has broken my idols that I have clung to.  He is laying into my heart over my poor stewardship, my immorality, my laziness.  I want to be a good steward of my possessions.  I want to be pure.  I want to be diligent.  Therefore, I must depend on God’s grace to carry me through, to change my heart from it’s wicked ways and toward God’s will to worship and glorify Him.

I praise God for his discipline.  Even though I am in a rough spot of trying to find a job, a place to stay, and a healthy community of believers; I still praise Him for it.  It has brought me to desperately cling on the mercies of God, which came through the Cross.  I hope that when this trial passes that I won’t give in to the conforts of this world, but continue to cling on the true contentment that is Christ.  It is well with my soul.

Jesus is all I have.